Rona Musings Firsts

“Perhaps this was a day of firsts. The day one dies, of course, is a first in any life.”
― Dean Koontz, Saint Odd

The first year

the worst year

the year of every day

being the first

every anniversary

every holiday

every everything

every first is here

in this blog

for all to see

nearly every day

of emotion

pain

grief

turned to

mourning

turned to

baby steps

to healing

“It’s true what they say, you know. First fuck. First love… You never forget your first.”
― Nenia Campbell, Cease and Desist

perhaps

I should not have been

so open

but my heart was shattered.

The good news is

that my heart is mending.

It doesn’t resemble

the heart of the past

it is cracked

shadows abound

but light shines through

the darkness

“Firsts are best because they are beginnings.”
― Jenny Han, To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before

I am trying

to look at firsts

not as anniversaries of sadness

but

as a cause for celebration of life,

memories, and love.

I am looking at life

as a new beginning,

a resurrection of sorts,

because part of me died

with my Love.

327 days

is long enough

to suffer.

I am

alive

and starting over

again.

Wish me luck.

XO Lisa

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  1. Wise Hearted

    I have had some great first but there is a few bad, very bad first in my life too. In fact, just today I was thinking on foolish things, which ones I would do and which ones I wouldn’t, like pet an alligator, or a snake but for sure I would pet any kind of puppy or kitten. Hummm, I may just have to write on foolish things. Your post inspired me.

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