“Perhaps this was a day of firsts. The day one dies, of course, is a first in any life.”
― Dean Koontz, Saint Odd
The first year
the worst year
the year of every day
being the first
every anniversary
every holiday
every everything
every first is here
in this blog
for all to see
nearly every day
of emotion
pain
grief
turned to
mourning
turned to
baby steps
to healing
“It’s true what they say, you know. First fuck. First love… You never forget your first.”
― Nenia Campbell, Cease and Desist
perhaps
I should not have been
so open
but my heart was shattered.
The good news is
that my heart is mending.
It doesn’t resemble
the heart of the past
it is cracked
shadows abound
but light shines through
the darkness
“Firsts are best because they are beginnings.”
― Jenny Han, To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before
I am trying
to look at firsts
not as anniversaries of sadness
but
as a cause for celebration of life,
memories, and love.
I am looking at life
as a new beginning,
a resurrection of sorts,
because part of me died
with my Love.
327 days
is long enough
to suffer.
I am
alive
and starting over
again.
Wish me luck.
XO Lisa
Grateful, Thankful, and Mending! 
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What a high compliment- to have inspired you! Thank you- that means so much, especially today!
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I have had some great first but there is a few bad, very bad first in my life too. In fact, just today I was thinking on foolish things, which ones I would do and which ones I wouldn’t, like pet an alligator, or a snake but for sure I would pet any kind of puppy or kitten. Hummm, I may just have to write on foolish things. Your post inspired me.
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