“The past is a place of reference, not a place of residence; the past is a place of learning, not a place of living.”― Roy T. Bennett, The Light in the Heart
Today I am grateful for lessons and moving forward.
I am grateful for progress,
being a different person than I was
the year prior,
and the years before that.
Growth comes through realizations,
not making excuses.
not being pessimistic.
Riding out storms,
without drowning in pain.
Dancing on the edge of the abyss,
but refusing to jump.
Navigating grief and mourning,
and not giving one hairy rat’s ass what others think or say about me.
Especially narcissistic asses who say one thing, do another, and cannot fathom that others can live a complete life without their influence. The worst kind of humans – the self-proclaimed experts who say that everyone has their own truth, but don’t you dare disagree with mine. Only caring about the almighty dollar and how many grieving people they can take advantage of.
When one dares to disagree and is vocal, s/he is summarily banished then bashed behind his/her back.
When I was growing up, these people were called two-faced. Typically that term was reserved for evangelists gone wrong, cheaters, or people who couldn’t keep a confidence.
The followers in the cult-like atmosphere will not believe that the person they look up to could possibly be so crass until it happens to them, but the vitriol from a self-proclaimed expert for disagreeing and questioning is real. However, experts (loosely applied) with no licensure and lacking formal training have no business counseling grieving individuals and may have a special place reserved in hell.
Long story short,
Afterwards, my healing moved on a fast-forward trajectory.
“Crying is all right in its way while it lasts. But you have to stop sooner or later, and then you still have to decide what to do.”― C.S. Lewis, The Silver Chair
“Imagine yourself as a living house. God comes in to rebuild that house. At first, perhaps, you can understand what He is doing. He is getting the drains right and stopping the leaks in the roof and so on; you knew that those jobs needed doing and so you are not surprised. But presently He starts knocking the house about in a way that hurts abominably and does not seem to make any sense. What on earth is He up to? The explanation is that He is building quite a different house from the one you thought of – throwing out a new wing here, putting on an extra floor there, running up towers, making courtyards. You thought you were being made into a decent little cottage: but He is building a palace. He intends to come and live in it Himself.”― C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity
a new life
a new me!
Moving forward at the speed of light!
XO Lisa ❤️ living a gratitude filled life!