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Counting Days in the Dark

You might have noticed

that I count days…

Perhaps you’ve wondered why

So I’m just going to put it out here:

I count days

because every day that passes

means that I am still alive

that I was strong enough

to stay that way

and survive another day.

… there have been moments …

(especially early on

when grief was overwhelming)

that darkness was

pervasive and

I didn’t want to live

without my Love


life seemed like a

place devoid of meaning.

Many nights- especially nights

I was hanging onto the edge

of a cliff

by my fingernails.

But every



I felt the darkness closing in

someone would call or text

or my Love would come to me

in a dream or send a message.

So to those of you who call,

message, text, and bug the

crap out of me- thank you!

You are my unaware angels

because you

loved me

enough to check in

and you

shared your strength

when I couldn’t find mine

I will

refuse to give in

to the darkness

I will be here tomorrow


I am



and Blessed

to have you

in my life.

180 XO Lisa

15 comments on “Counting Days in the Dark

  1. Like!! Really appreciate you sharing this blog post.Really thank you! Keep writing.


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  4. My timing has never been referred to as anything remotely close to perfection- so thank you!


  5. Merry Christmas from
    Brother’s Campfire!

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  6. You have lovely people around you

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  7. I pray for your strength to never fail! You are a warrior! Praying for you through these Christmas holidays! 🙏🏼

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  8. When I was walking with Angie through her grief for her son I would see the little glimmer of hope when others reached out to her. She may not have wanted it but she needed it. A friend’s love, concern, compassion and prayers goes a long way. I am praying for you Lisa.

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  9. I am happy you are finding the strength to write through it 😔 though ‘inside it’ seems more fitting.

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