So I have to tell you something freaky that happened.

I have been listening to the song “Reason to Fight” by Disturbed nearly nonstop since Monday (the first time I listened it nearly broke me). After the 100th time it became comforting because I imagined my Love singing it to me. Now it’s my anthem reminder that I will survive.

Tuesday evening as I was listening while reading a book in bed I heard my Love say my name

OUT LOUD

just one word

LISA

It was his authoritative voice… probably telling me to get myself together.

After the shock subsided

and the tears started

I managed a soft “thank you, sir.”

You see, the book I was reading was one of the “Fifty Shades” trilogy by EL James. I was reflecting on how our lives were similar to those of the characters (without the intrigue, riches, youth, and beauty).

Like the fictional Mr. Grey, my Love gave up a lifestyle he enjoyed because his love for me was deeper.

In the process he tamed my wild, broken, untrusting soul with his strength and unconditional love. For that I will be forever grateful, blessed, and his.

I miss him so… but i did sleep all night for the first time in forever.

Truth can truly be stranger than fiction.

P.S. – I am still stubborn… some things will never change.

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  8. Such a touching part of your journey…I vision that I will find peace in knowing my love will continue to watch over me someday or vice versa…

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  9. As time passes it never takes the pain of loosing a loved one but we become stronger with Gods everlasting promise that he will always be there to pick us up!!!

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