“I don’t know if you’ve ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That’s why I’m trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning.”

― Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower

For the last five years

sleep has been elusive




Until last night.

I slept eight and one-half hours

straight through

without waking

not moving

and soundly.

I feel rested and restored.

This may not seem like a victory

to some

but to me,

it is a miracle of sorts.

A gift of ginormous proportions.

I am a Respiratory Therapist who teaches people that lack of sleep can lead to increased risk of stroke, heart attack, motor vehicle accidents, diabetes, premature death, and high blood pressure.

… all the while not sleeping myself.

Mental quandaries

do not sit well with me.


But for one night

one glorious night

I slept.

Today is a gift

With eyes wide-open

for the first time in forever

I am thankful for sleep

I am grateful for small miracles

I will run with this gift

and will make the most of today!

XO Lisa

PS- Praying it isn’t a fluke…

2 comments on “Rona Musings Sleep

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