In the blog post Life—Period I mentioned
a rabbit hole to go down later…
I can’t resist a good rabbit hole
and no, my name isn’t Alice…
But the question haunting me is:
Why is it that the person I see in the mirror is so focused on the things she wants to fix that she can’t (or won’t) see in herself what others see?
Is it humility?
A still fractured sense of self-worth?
The child within who was bullied
because she was heavy all her life?
That was hard…
The adult who was shamed because
she gained weight after giving birth
to two children?
The person who is getting older
with more wrinkles and gray hair
That’s just natural order…
The lady who is not perfect to the
‘standards’ of today, or yesterday
for that matter…
Now we’re onto something!
By the way, this isn’t meant
to be a pity fest.
I am honestly going down this
rabbit hole of self-reflection
because I KNOW that I am not the
only person who sees the flaws in
the mirror that need to be fixed
instead of the good qualities that
G-d gave me.
I see someone different
than others see,
than G-d sees.
I wish I could see myself through
my Love’s eyes.
He always told me that I was
beautiful. No matter what weight,
how tired my eyes were,
or how many times I protested.
But the question remains, why?
If we hold ourselves
to G-d’s standards, and
we are made in H-s image
Therefore, we can be no
less than wondrous.
So who am I going to believe?
The voices in my head instilling
self-doubt and loathing,
the ads saying buy this
beauty product, or that
The answer is clear!
Now to put it into practice…
209 & 21/365 XO Lisa