Badassery 1/30-31/2021 and Gratitude 154

Well hello little badass calendar

No, it is not January 30th, or 31st for that matter.

I am way behind – by more than a week – my apologies to whomever is reading this and has not given up on me.

I am feeling much better today. The muscle achiness and severe exhaustion brought on by antibiotics and a healing older body have nearly dissipated.

Back to being behind…

I may try to get caught up, might not.

But this little calendar entry deserved a look-see in my book.

“You created the . . . reality you’re in right now by doing what you’re doing how you’re doing it — buying into your present excuses and limitations…”

Grammar aside (don’t feel like going down that rabbit hole right now), the point is well-taken at this time in my 60ish year old life.

I can count on one hand how many times I celebrated Valentine’s Day since 2004.

You see, we buried my sister Dana on the hallmark holiday Valentine’s Day in the year 2004.

Since then, it hasn’t really been the same happy, lovey-dovey, time for me.

Larry and I exchanged cards and trinkets a couple of times near the end of his time here on earth but the day still had a dark cloud hanging over it for me.

“If you’re serious about creating a new reality, you must do different things and think different thoughts. Faith allows you to release the need to know How it’s going to happen, to trust that the way will be shown, and to take action before having all the answers laid out before you.”

My friend and I were discussing Valentine’s day today and he gently suggested that it’s time to make a change and embrace the holiday.

Let go of the old and make room for the new.

As one who spent a great deal of time healing from grief in the past 19 months, this idea of letting go of 17 years of sadness-centered tradition provokes a slight bit of anxiety.

However, I wonder to myself if Dana would want me to continue to remember the day of her burial

one day a year,

or the crazy, funny, rebellious, loving, person that she was 365 days a year?

I am leaning towards the second choice and hanging up my “I don’t do Valentine’s Day” attitude this year.

Another change for the good to be grateful for, along with physical healing.

XO Lisa ❤️