This is the third rewrite of “Why I Write”.
The reason I started blogging can be found here: Why I Write
Here is the first rewrite of Why I Write
And here is Why I Write Rewrite II
“This life is for loving, sharing, learning, smiling, caring, forgiving, laughing, hugging, helping, dancing, wondering, healing, and even more loving. I choose to live life this way. I want to live my life in such a way that when I get out of bed in the morning, the devil says, ‘aw shit, he’s up!”
― Steve Maraboli, Unapologetically You: Reflections on Life and the Human Experience
Today my grief/mourning/healing journey has taken another turn.
I am still moving forward, embracing my shadows, weirdness, demons, kink, depravity, and acknowledging them so they no longer have power over me.
However, since they are identified, I am not afraid to let them out to play occasionally…
As a result of embracing my shadows and the rest of mySELF,
I no longer believe that healing is an impossible task that will last forever.
Broken bones eventually heal.
Grief and mourning are not incurable diseases.
When I do the work and embrace the process of healing,
I can and will heal and live a life of happiness.
Therefore, I do not believe that I am required to mourn for the rest of my life.
Because I am a realist, I realize that there will be sadness ahead.
However, at this point I can recognize the difference between transient sadness and the all-out, consuming pain caused by grief and mourning.
Larry is pain-free and wants me to heal. He does not want me to live with the defeatist attitude that I must spend the rest of my life healing as a result of his death.
Do I miss him? Of course!
Will I forget him? Not in a million years!
Will I talk about him? How could I not?
Is he with me? Absolutely!
Does he talk to me? Yes!
I will love him forever, love is not a competition.
Today and going forward I seek peace.
My paradigm has shifted.
I am ready to live this life that I have been granted
in full-on Happiness
with Joy
in Peace
with Mindfulness,
Love,
and an occasional swear-word or three.
I will not tolerate negative, defeatist individuals in my orbit.
I am ready to level-up my energy and shine!
Thank you for being a part of my journey – through the sorrow, pain, and the happiness.
XO Lisa
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Grateful, Thankful, and Mending! 
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I love your reference to your life upsetting the devil when you wake in the morning. God knows that is my heart also. I so totally agree with you on grief and healing. My whole life has been one of healing and as I grow from it I see a different facet to grieving and do not allow it to capture my heart for long. Our son and family came for a visit right after Christmas, four whole days of pure joy, laughing, watching our grandchildren play in real snow. I planned to grieve for at least three days, each one getting back to letting go. It helps me to grieve because I know it comes from love, total love. We grieve that which we love and lose. Praise God you are getting on the other side of grief and sadness. It’s a world with power and insight like never before. When life goes through the grid of loss values become clear. Lovely read, I will be back for more.
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Also want to add this encouragement, you are gonna help others with your honest way of writing. You helped me.
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Thank you so much ❤️ XO Lisa
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Oh my goodness, Betty! “When life goes through the grid of loss values become clear. “ What a true statement! May I quote you please? XO Lisa
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oh yes, anytime. Thanks…
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https://grief2beautifulsorrow.blog/2021/01/12/grids-and-gratitude/
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Very nicely and honestly expressed Lisa 🙂
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Thank you, Rory. 😊
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Always a pleasure Lisa 🙂
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Love this Lisa. I so appreciate your honesty
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Thank you Sharon ❤️
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Beautiful how you are moving forward Lisa. Larry would be happy like you said.
❤️🤗
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❤️ thank you!
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You are so welcome. I admire your moving forward.
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I have to. I cannot live in constant sadness anymore. Life is too short.
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And you are doing it and beautifully at that with so much insight.
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I truly look forward to the future, whatever it may bring. It’s a wonderful feeling!
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Great attitude!
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❤️
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Very inspirational post. You are heading in the right direction. I love the quote at the beginning. Thank you for sharing. Take care.
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Thank you for reading and commenting. I look forward to the future and will continue to blog my journey!
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Boundaries. Acknowledgement. Self awareness. All healing steps in the upward direction!
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Onward and Upward – all while looking up!
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I like it. Healing is healthy, if that makes sense. I think it’s a great statement.
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Healing is Healthy!
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