This is the third rewrite of “Why I Write”.

The reason I started blogging can be found here: Why I Write

Here is the first rewrite of Why I Write

And here is Why I Write Rewrite II

“This life is for loving, sharing, learning, smiling, caring, forgiving, laughing, hugging, helping, dancing, wondering, healing, and even more loving. I choose to live life this way. I want to live my life in such a way that when I get out of bed in the morning, the devil says, ‘aw shit, he’s up!”

― Steve Maraboli, Unapologetically You: Reflections on Life and the Human Experience

Today my grief/mourning/healing journey has taken another turn.

I am still moving forward, embracing my shadows, weirdness, demons, kink, depravity, and acknowledging them so they no longer have power over me.

However, since they are identified, I am not afraid to let them out to play occasionally…

As a result of embracing my shadows and the rest of mySELF,

I no longer believe that healing is an impossible task that will last forever.

Broken bones eventually heal.

Grief and mourning are not incurable diseases.

When I do the work and embrace the process of healing,

I can and will heal and live a life of happiness.

Therefore, I do not believe that I am required to mourn for the rest of my life.

Because I am a realist, I realize that there will be sadness ahead.

However, at this point I can recognize the difference between transient sadness and the all-out, consuming pain caused by grief and mourning.

Larry is pain-free and wants me to heal. He does not want me to live with the defeatist attitude that I must spend the rest of my life healing as a result of his death.

Do I miss him? Of course!

Will I forget him? Not in a million years!

Will I talk about him? How could I not?

Is he with me? Absolutely!

Does he talk to me? Yes!

I will love him forever, love is not a competition.

Today and going forward I seek peace.

My paradigm has shifted.

I am ready to live this life that I have been granted

in full-on Happiness

with Joy

in Peace

with Mindfulness,


and an occasional swear-word or three.

I will not tolerate negative, defeatist individuals in my orbit.

I am ready to level-up my energy and shine!

Thank you for being a part of my journey – through the sorrow, pain, and the happiness.

XO Lisa

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27 comments on “Why I Write Rewrite III

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  2. I love your reference to your life upsetting the devil when you wake in the morning. God knows that is my heart also. I so totally agree with you on grief and healing. My whole life has been one of healing and as I grow from it I see a different facet to grieving and do not allow it to capture my heart for long. Our son and family came for a visit right after Christmas, four whole days of pure joy, laughing, watching our grandchildren play in real snow. I planned to grieve for at least three days, each one getting back to letting go. It helps me to grieve because I know it comes from love, total love. We grieve that which we love and lose. Praise God you are getting on the other side of grief and sadness. It’s a world with power and insight like never before. When life goes through the grid of loss values become clear. Lovely read, I will be back for more.

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  4. aguycalledbloke

    Very nicely and honestly expressed Lisa 🙂

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  5. Love this Lisa. I so appreciate your honesty

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  6. Beautiful how you are moving forward Lisa. Larry would be happy like you said.

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  7. Very inspirational post. You are heading in the right direction. I love the quote at the beginning. Thank you for sharing. Take care.

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  8. Boundaries. Acknowledgement. Self awareness. All healing steps in the upward direction!

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  9. I like it. Healing is healthy, if that makes sense. I think it’s a great statement.

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