I have been meaning to write a new “Why I Write” post for some time now. Mainly because opening the ‘Blog Posts’ page and scrolling through the first post I wrote on this blog through tears is still incredibly painful to see, even now…
If you are curious, you can find it here:
So now for the Why I Write Rewrite:
I write because it helps me
see my way through the forest
even though the sad days
are fewer than before
they still come…
I write to share my journey
every messy, painful, brutal,
part of this grief thing and
the process of starting over
starting to live again
finding out who I am
after living entirely
thinking only of others
for 40 years-
and naively hoping that somehow
by writing this all down
it might help another.
Please don’t feel sorry for me,
I gave everything to
those that I loved
without reservation-
my love,
my children,
my parents,
was the caregiver to all
past the point of exhaustion,
willingly, and
with no regrets.
But make no mistake,
it’s now time for me
to find myself
to dig deep
slay my demons
conquer my darkness
overcome my fears
to do what’s good for me
to let in only the right people
to have fun, new experiences,
listen to music on full bore,
dance in the car,
to live, love, be kooky,
be kinky, embrace my weirdness,
and truly, fully, exponentially live!
But to also show that if
I hang on long enough,
lean on my G-d and my tribe,
scream when I have to,
cry when I need to,
talk only when I want to,
melt down occasionally
when it all gets to be too much,
but never give up:
I will survive
I will heal
I will make it
I will love this life
I will be a warrior
and
I will be radiant.
XO Lisa
Grateful, Thankful, and Mending! 
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Like!! Great article post.Really thank you! Really Cool.
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Thank you so much for reading and commenting! I appreciate your feedback!
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Looking forward to more rewrites as your life will enjoy exciting chapters to come. God’s peace!
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Oh my goodness thank you very much ❤️
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“…listen to music on full bore”
This is what I do, and I can fully recommend it 😄! Definitely time to really live and be true to you! That goes for all of us. Thanks for sharing Lisa
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Music…. my heart ❤️. Thank you so much for reading and commenting!
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xoxo 😊
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❤️
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You are radiant my friend! I’m so very happy that you are taking this time for you! It sounds like you have had your hands full for years. Good years and good memories, no doubt. Embrace the weirdness and be kooky! I love it! 😆 I pray healing for you and happiness. 🙂💕
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Thank you so much Renee. Yes, good years. 💕
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