Roxie the dog woke me up early enough this morning to catch the sunrise through the trees on Friday the 13th of November in the year 2020.
The sunrise brought me joy!
Even in 2020,
the year of shutdowns,
government overreaction and overreach that violated so many individual rights,
the shitty year full of Rona fuckery that
is keeping families apart,
has killed people I know,
shattered the will to live of so many seniors in long-term-care facilities who could not see their families,
and brought healthcare workers and so many others to the brink of insanity.
(there is always a but)
2020 has also been the year that
I was forced to stay inside and therefore,
got my priorities in order.
I could not distract from dealing with grief,
my demons, shadows, kink, and depravity.
2020 forced me to find new ways to connect with my innermost self and others.
To find support from old and new friends.
To find happiness and joy in minuscule things.
2020 made me appreciate people when I could see them and take immense pleasure in every moment,
Become the leader of my own heart and mind instead of being so quick to trust it to another.
Be the girl who is unapologetically real,
can actually express feelings,
can appreciate the sheer beauty of the little finches, day lilies, majestic sunrise and sunset – especially when viewed from the lake shore.
2020 has been a badass year in so many ways.
It isn’t over yet, but it has not defeated me.
Even amidst the fuckery that is 2020.
XO Lisa ❤️ living a gratitude filled life!