As I stand here bathed in light
after being lost in the darkness
of grief and mourning
for what seems like years-
everything glitters, and
each day is a magical gift.
I don’t say ‘lost’ lightly.
Nobody, absolutely nobody,
knew just how dangerously close
I was to my edge, the end of me.
I was getting in my car to go home
to carry out my plan
when my phone dinged
just a quick text conversation-
but for four well-placed words
that made me laugh hysterically
and think that
if I can still laugh
all is not lost,
I would not be here.
I will be okay,
It preceded a week of
personal growth at the speed of light,
magical, ethereal, spiritual, glittery
that is still difficult to comprehend.
To that person,
I owe the deepest debt of gratitude.
You pulled my ass back.
G-d showed me,
through the kindness of another,
I am strong
I will be okay
and I am worthy!
P.S.- To anyone reading this: never stop being kind. You never know who needs your kindness at just the right time.
To anyone in their darkest place. Reach out. You are worthy whether you believe it or not.