It’s been one month since I have blogged
frankly, I have missed writing
pen to paper
typing to screen
December was a busy, brutal month with both dark and light moments
and memories as well.
I passed the 62 years on this earth milestone…
Not bad for a three month premature baby who wasn’t supposed to live…
and shortly after the milestone birthday was ill with bronchitis that knocked me down through Christmas, cancelled our planned trip to Florida, and was transferred to Bill.
Good things came out of it though…
My husband is a marvelous caregiver,
the crochet blanket that I’ve been working on for Bill is nearly completed with more projects on the horizon,
and the ceramic Christmas Tree finally came down (it’s been up since 2019) – hey, don’t laugh, it was a major victory!
Yesterday we finally celebrated Christmas with the family – and received my favorite (ever) gift that has a place of honor on the wall:
But what would a new year be without reflection on the past?
In years past I would go over the year with a fine-toothed comb to see what I could or should have done differently.
Thinking of how hard life was and how I persevered with bravery.
This year seems different.
I really didn’t spend much time in reflection…
more time in gratitude and enjoying life as it is now.
Perhaps it’s a product of getting older
maybe wiser (although I don’t feel it)
but I’ve come to the conclusion
that my life is turning out
just as God planned
regardless of my screw ups
or how many times I’ve asked why
His answer is always, “I’ve got you – you’ll see – just trust in My plan…”
I thought the outcome
wasn’t what I wanted
something new and better
came out of the ashes
the unanswered prayers
were answered – in different ways than I wanted
but still answered to His Glory.
You’ll find numerous examples in this blog if you care to look,
but one example comes to mind at this moment:
I prayed for Larry to be healed.
He was – just not on this earth.
An answer to prayer – for him – his suffering was extinguished when he went on his last great adventure to live in God’s presence – pain free and peaceful.
It took a long while and a slow walk through the valley of the shadow of grief for me to realize that my prayer for Larry’s healing was answered – in the best possible way for him and not for my selfishness.
How can I be angry at God for that, or any other situation in my life that I questioned that turned out differently than I wanted?
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord!
Plans to prosper you and not to harm you,
(even if you screw things up
are angry at me
turn your back
put your trust in others besides me
do things you know are not good for your well-being
trust your soul to the deceiver)
I will always be there for you
when you turn back towards me
put your trust in Me
“to give you HOPE and a future!”
because My plans are
a future that includes eternity in my presence.
All you need to do is trust
for God’s grace I am grateful!
I am also Grateful:
That God sent Bill into my life at just the right time – for both of us.
For my grandchildren who bring immeasurable joy to my life
Children that are happy and successful
My life as it is now…
and my future
that it is in God’s hands
right where it should be.
XO Lisa ❤️
aww sweet picture Lisa and Happy belated Birthday. Glad you’re doing better my friend! 💗
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Lisa, I am thankful that you and Bill weathered illness. God is always with us! As this new year started out, I spent time reflecting on God’s presence during the previous year’s challenges and disappointments. I praised Him for keeping tomorrow’s hope always burning brightly . . . and I certainly needed it. Hope is my word for this year, perhaps as a daily reminder of God’s grace. Blessings to you and Bill this year!
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