Well hello little badass calendar… I am late, but only three days!
I have decided that I am going to skip your missives that rub me the wrong way, unless I have something coherent to say about them.
Ahhhh the dreaded comfort zone.
I definitely have mine,
now more than ever.
The routine is pretty much the same every weekday –
get up, shower, make tea,
turn on the computer,
go to work in the front room,
when the workday is done, run errands,
read, phone, or listen to music
until it’s time to go to bed.
Wait a minute, who am I kidding?
That dismal story is not entirely true!
Work is fulfilling – I am exceedingly fortunate to be working in a position that I enjoy, for and with people who are above-board, honest, transparent, and best of all, treat everyone in the company as family.
Family is amazing. Most of my family and I are on speaking terms and we check in regularly. I thoroughly enjoy checking in with Sarah and the grandlittles. Hearing the background goings on, and “I love you grandma” makes my day. Miss B still loves to ‘play faces’ and I do too!
My friends and I talk often and keep in touch on messenger platforms. We share opinions without angst and bounce ideas off each other – even opposing opinions… yes, it’s possible to hold opposing opinions and remain friends… go figure.
Yes, things change.
The only thing constant in life IS change.
One thing I have learned in my many rotations around the sun is not to fear change.
I used to hate change of any type. It would send me down an anxiety pathway that was not pretty.
I was so afraid of change that I
stayed married the first time for many years longer than I should have,
remained in a bad job for much longer than even I thought was humanly possible,
had difficulty making even the smallest decisions for myself.
My fear of change caused a great deal of stress in my life.
What shifted my reality about change?
It took hard work and an honest retrospective look back,
but I realized that every change that I was anxious about was ultimately for my betterment,
the things that I thought were the worst at the time ended up being the best things that happened to me.
Even the little things like delays, wrong turns, getting lost, etc. The examples are endless.
This retrospective cemented my belief that G-d is in control and everything happens for a reason, season, or lifetime.
There are no coincidences.
What is change?
G-d telling me that a course-correction is necessary.
Otherwise, disaster looms ahead.
Thanks be to G-d for H-s loving protection and giving me peace of mind through erasing fear of change!