Well hello little badass calendar
You’ve opened up a can of worms today…
a huge can of worms.
When I was a child, my dad used to take my sisters and I fishing at the reservoir. He taught us to bait the fishing hooks with worms.
I hate fishing to this day because I cannot bear to pick up the squiggly worms and put them on the pole.
Yes, I know that one doesn’t necessarily have to use live bait anymore, but then after the fish are caught there are guts and gore. Enough said.
Therefore, the saying “a can of worms” has a very negative connotation for me.
Since I am out of that rabbit hole now, I’ll continue…
“We invest everything we’ve got in believing we’re not good enough.”
I do not know when it started, but I felt like I wasn’t good enough a great deal of my life.
Perhaps it was the perfect barbie dolls I played with even before the onset of puberty that set the standard.
It could have been going school shopping and feeling ashamed because my clothing size didn’t match my chronological age and my grandmother pointed it out to this eight year old child (who thought about it incessantly after that). Yes, I love her for many reasons, but that incident stung deeply.
Maybe always being picked as one of the last for elementary school dodgeball or any of those stupid playground games. Kids can be so cruel.
It could have been the teasing I endured due to middle school oily hair, even though it was washed daily.
Please don’t feel sorry for me. My crying over all of these things provided plenty of opportunities to develop the familial “Suck it up and move on” motto. One, unfortunately, that I taught my children. I am sorry.
My escape was music and writing. I excelled at both.
But even music and writing weren’t enough to squash the nagging feeling that I wasn’t good enough that followed me throughout childhood and into adulthood.
Hell, even now I sometimes make questionable decisions. Have all out wars in my head between my inner child and the new badass who doesn’t take shit from anybody.
The good news is, the badass adult is older, hopefully wiser, and
Knows she is good enough!
Knows she is worthy!
Will not settle for less than she deserves!
You, too, are good enough!
You, too, are worthy!
Never, ever settle for less than you deserve!
We cannot change what has happened in the past.
We can only change this moment and every moment going forward.
Never, ever settle!
Be a Badass!
XO Lisa ❤️ living a gratitude filled life!