More Gratitude Day 107

“We all have forests on our minds. Forests unexplored, unending. Each one of us gets lost in the forest, every night, alone.”

Ursula K. Le Guin, The Wind’s Twelve Quarters

I have always viewed forests as dark, scary places…

Maybe I was traumatized as a child by the enchanted forest in the movie “Snow White” that my mom took me to see as a child.

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“And into the forest I go, to lose my mind and find my soul”

John Muir

Perhaps I was always afraid of the dark

or what I perceived as my darkness…

“My battle with the forest depths was wholly lost, or so it seemed. My hand still shakes with the thought of how close I came to dying, for I felt the burning coldness of Death’s breath upon my face, and the whisper of sliding bones in my ear. But alas, I am still among the living, or so I believe.”

Christopher C. Fuchs, The Depths of Redemption

But after I embraced myself, my shadows, weirdness, demons, kink, depravity, all the parts that I always thought were not good enough, not ‘perfect’ my inner darkness became less scary.

I began to notice sunshine.

I was able to see the glorious light streaming through the trees

I finally felt whole.

At night, the deep dark depths of my mind no longer seemed as scary

and I found comfort sleeping in total darkness.

As a result of self-discovery, I no longer need the validation of others

to feel complete.

I am content with myself in this moment, and will make improvements when I decide to do so.

Many do not want to face their darkness because it is not a task for the faint of heart. But I view it as a ‘Why?’ on my road less-traveled through the forest.

I always seem to take the road less-traveled.

It is my main road.

I am curious, probably in more ways than one.

However, I want to know things. Not just know, but KNOW.

I like to find out not only how, but also why.

I probably drove my Mother a bit crazy as a child.

‘Why am I afraid of the dark?’

‘Why do I feel unworthy at times?’

‘How can I change those things to live my best life?’

Always questioning, seeking, and looking for answers.

The Road Not Taken

“TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference. ”

― Robert Frost Ph.D., The Road Not Taken and Other Poems

I used to wonder what my life would be like today had I taken another road.

I wonder no longer…

My life is a rich, beautiful, cacophony of experiences that are mine alone.

All have melded to create the person I am today.

I am grateful.

XO Lisa ❤️

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