new life rebirth Thoughts on Grief

New Beginnings II

“Perhaps that is where our choice lies — in determining how we will meet the inevitable end of things, and how we will greet each new beginning.”

― Elana K. Arnold, “Burning

Today seems like the first day of the rest of my life.

A day for new beginnings, to be grateful for blessings past, present, and future.

When I feel alone G-d is there to hold and comfort. To orchestrate my life, my steps, my new beginnings. He has been with me since day one…

The start of my life was not without peril. Born three months early at 2lbs 11ozs or 1.22kg, The doctors predicted a 10% chance to live if I made it through the first 72 hours. In 1960 the technology of today just didn’t exist. To call me stubborn might be an understatement. Just that fact that I am here nearly 59 years later could be called a miracle. My grandparents thought so.

As a child and into middle school I questioned everything (I still do). The library was my friend. The religion section especially. I headed to sections 200-299 every time I went to the library. I brought home stacks of books.

I was a sarcastic, rebellious teen – just didn’t understand why the status quo was the right way (I still don’t). Books took a backseat to music. I didn’t fit in with any one group, so I picked my friends carefully. I was fearless.

As an adult, I fell in love, got married. I was blessed with two bonus children then added two more to the pack.

When we divorced I went to school, became a Respiratory Therapist, moved two hours away from everyone I knew, and my children and I had yet another new adventurous beginning.

Time passed, my children grew up and left the nest to pursue their dreams. I met my Love and after 17 years of being self-sufficient (alone) I married the love of my life. More blessings with two bonus children. Five grandchildren later, life was exactly where I wanted it to be.

But 150 days ago my Love died.

Yet again, I am self-sufficient and it’s time for another adventure, a new beginning.

It’s time to rebuild my life, start over, embrace change , begin again.

“Every beginning
has an ending
Don’t let the goodbye
scare you from starting
what could be
the best
story of your life”

― Dawn Lanuza, “You Are Here

150 XO Lisa

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