Thoughts on Grief XXIII

A weekend of firsts

Has come and gone

I’m sure you are proud

Of my lessons learned:

It’s okay to accept sincere

‘I’m sorry’ and hugs from friends

Without feeling too claustrophobic

I survived sleeping in a hotel room alone

Without you a phone call away

Even though it was the very same room we had the last time we stayed there.

I hugged our grandchildren

Extra hard- once for you too

My biggest lesson was that

I was okay alone before I met you

And mostly

I am okay alone now that you’re gone

Even though I miss you like crazy

and wherever I go and everything I do reminds me of things we did

Together –

But I didn’t cry all weekend

Until I was almost

Home

Alone

© Lisa P 11 August 2019