Bringing Myself Forth
What a concept!
Acting in my best interests
Doing only what seems right for me
Sounds pretty selfish, right?
It sounds like I am being unapologetically real for the first time in my life.
In order to heal from my hyper-rollercoaster of grief and slow it down to the ups and downs of a coaster in the kiddie park,
I have to do what is right for me,
in my own way.
I must take care of myself.
Lawrence went on to his next great adventure
1 year, 5 months, 19 days
17 months, 19 days
76 weeks and 6 days ago.
Those 538 days encompassed my lowest of lows when I did not want to remain on this spinning earth ball and numbness with non-stop crying. Then glimpses of happiness that morphed into acceptance and the road to healing.
Everything can change on a moment’s notice when tears rise slyly to the surface and spill out – then there is no choice but to ride the grief wave to the end.
My road to healing began in earnest when I realized that I could not live the remainder of my life in constant sorrow – always looking backwards.
Grief has softened as I have embraced healing, gathered more tools to use along the way, and found support through unconditionally supportive family, friends, and a tribe of soul sisters.
My 538 day journey of grief, mourning, and healing has taught me some very important lessons:
Keep peace as a priority
Do not take ANYTHING personally
Focus on breathing
Live in the present moment because I am guaranteed nothing more
Accept that not everyone will understand me
Everyone’s journey is personal
Healing is the best gift I can give myself, Larry, and the ones I love
Sadness is a part of life, and I can choose what to do with my sadness.
I choose to:
Be unapologetically real
and Bring Myself Forth!
XO Lisa ❤️ living a gratitude filled life!