Musings More Gratitude 8/5

“Dance. Smile. Giggle. Marvel. TRUST. HOPE. LOVE. WISH. BELIEVE. Most of all, enjoy every moment of the journey, and appreciate where you are at this moment instead of always focusing on how far you have to go.”

― Mandy Hale

What great advice

“…enjoy every moment of the journey, and appreciate where you are at this moment instead of always focusing on how far you have to go.”

I would add: Be sure to take some time to look at how far you’ve come.

When I started this grief/mourning/healing process I was a wreck.

Broken.

My heart was smashed into a billion pieces.

I didn’t know if I would, could, or wanted to survive this life without Larry.

I had more close calls than I care to admit, when I thought that life wasn’t worth living. I had a plan to end it. Came all too close once.

But slowly, oh so slowly, I started seeing light through the darkness.

The broken pieces of my heart started knitting back together.

Oh there are scars, probably some holes.

But holes let love out, and in as well.

My outlet is writing. Therefore, every messy, sad, nonsensical, making it seem better than real to try to convince myself that it was, screaming, crying, moment is here for all to see in the archives.

Even so, writing didn’t make me feel much better. I was wallowing in grief. I was listening to teachers who said that I would have to live with mourning the rest of my life. The dichotomy that healing was possible but not probable.

In addition to the support I received from my wonderful family, friends, and WordPress community, I found a group of ‘badass soul sisters’ who have found ways to communicate with me even though I was kicked out of the main group.

I started writing gratitudes

daily

64 days ago.

“It’s a funny thing about life, once you begin to take note of the things you are grateful for, you begin to lose sight of the things that you lack.”

― Germany Kent

Writing gratitudes daily…

has changed the trajectory of my mind

has changed my very thought processes.

I highly recommend writing three gratitudes each day!

Has made me grateful for literally everything!

I am finally to the point in this journey, after going through hell, crying my heart out, and examining most of my shadows, that I can truthfully say that I am enjoying life!

I am ready to

“Dance. Smile. Giggle. Marvel. TRUST. HOPE. LOVE. WISH. BELIEVE.”

I am Happy!

I no longer wake up sad.

I wake up thinking of what I am grateful for in the present moment.

I can set goals for the future that I didn’t think that I would have.

I can live in the present without fear.

I can look at myself in the mirror without disgust.

Life is

not the Future

or the Past

Life is only the Present Moment

Life is NOW!

I am in love with life,

I am at peace,

it’s a marvelous feeling,

and I am grateful!

XO Lisa