Badassery 9/26 & 27

Well hello little badass calendar!

You are getting a little spunky near the end of the month and so, my dear, am I.

I no longer apologize for who I am.

I used to.

All the time. All the time.

I apologized for my own thoughts

for being me

for spilling milk

for saying No

for things I did long ago —

right or wrong.

I apologized so much it became clear to me that I was apologizing for taking up space — because I didn’t think I was worthy.

I don’t know why I thought I wasn’t worthy, I just did not think I was.

All that changed suddenly when I decided not being myself was no way to live life.

I decided that I am worthy!

Coming into my own took work, major soul-searching.

I started by changing my thoughts:

I became my own ardent supporter

with notes on the mirror

TED talks to myself

no self-doubt allowed.

After thoughts, I had to change my words

— self-talk included.

Negative thoughts were swiftly turned into positive.

Whenever I caught myself saying ‘I’m sorry’ as a habit I changed my verbiage.

Instead I said, “Sorry, not sorry.”

I started saying ‘No, thank you.’

Became less of a people-pleaser and more in tune with my own needs.

The decision to stand up and be myself was not easy —

it alienated some,

others applauded.

In the process of changing my words and thoughts, I also set firm boundaries:

those who do not show

respect, honesty,

love, commitment,

good intentions, or true friendship

(to name a few)

are not worthy to take up space

in my head

my heart

or my life.

Their invitations

are rescinded.

This act,

firm decision,

statement of independence,

from all things not in my best interests

has freed up time and energy —

To do things that I want to do

Grow

Improve myself

Take on new and fun projects

Relax

and enjoy life!

I highly recommend never, ever apologizing for who you are!

Be authentic!

Those who are meant to stay, will.

Those who are not, will find others.

XO Lisa ❤️