The day I understood everything, was the day I stopped trying to figure everything out. The day I knew peace was the day I let everything go.C. JoyBell C.
I have been struggling with peace lately —
praying for peace,
craving answers to questions that are unanswerable.
I have always wanted answers to burning questions I could never understand.
Why do people kill each other?
Why is there so much hatred in the world?
Why can’t we listen to each other without polarizing judgement?
Why do people have to be so nasty and hurtful?
Why… why… why?
I have always been a “Why” person. Just ask my mom – oh wait, you cannot- she is dead. But if you could ask her, she would confirm that I drove her crazy with “why” questions.
Probably drove myself a little bonkers as well.
I suppose that after 22,172 days on this planet all the answers that I seek would be clear…
but they aren’t.
So I am back to square one —
Peace with the possibility of losing my job due to a vaccine mandate which I oppose.
Peace with finding another way to survive.
Peace with letting go and trusting G-d to take care of me and those I love as H- has done faithfully my whole life.
Because for all intents and purposes I should not be here today after coming into this world three months early.
For all intents and purposes I should not be here after I died and had to be resuscitated after anaphylaxis from an allergy shot.
The only reason I am here is for the intents and purposes given to me by the Omnipresent, Omnipotent, G-d of the universe.
Therefore, do my questions really matter?
In the grand scheme of life, probably not,
My future is already planned.
So is yours.
“For I know the plans that I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope.”Jeremiah 29:11
When I feel weak with fear or worry I must remember my source of hope.
“Be strong and let your heart take courage,
All you who hope in the Lord.”Psalm 31:24
Everything is happening for a reason according to G-d’s plan.
Good and bad. Who am I to question G-d?
“The Lord has made everything for its own purpose,
Even the wicked for the day of evil.”Proverbs 16:4
Sometimes things that I have been the most hopeless about or perceived as the worst to ever happen have put me on a collision course with the biggest blessings of my life.
“…we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.”Romans 8:28
G-d is always faithful.
“Be strong and courageous, do not be afraid or tremble at them, for the Lord your God is the one who goes with you. He will not fail you or forsake you.”Deuteronomy 31:6
All we need to do is trust!
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart
And do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He will make your paths straight.”Proverbs 3:5-6
Straight to peace.
The next time I start to worry, I will hold tight to G-d’s promises that have shown themselves to be truthful over and over again…
then look up with a grateful heart.
XO Lisa ❤️