So I have to tell you something freaky that happened.
I have been listening to the song “Reason to Fight” by Disturbed nearly nonstop since Monday (the first time I listened it nearly broke me). After the 100th time it became comforting because I imagined my Love singing it to me. Now it’s my anthem reminder that I will survive.
Tuesday evening as I was listening while reading a book in bed I heard my Love say my name
just one word
It was his authoritative voice… probably telling me to get myself together.
After the shock subsided
and the tears started
I managed a soft “thank you, sir.”
You see, the book I was reading was one of the “Fifty Shades” trilogy by EL James. I was reflecting on how our lives were similar to those of the characters (without the intrigue, riches, youth, and beauty).
Like the fictional Mr. Grey, my Love gave up a lifestyle he enjoyed because his love for me was deeper.
In the process he tamed my wild, broken, untrusting soul with his strength and unconditional love. For that I will be forever grateful, blessed, and his.
I miss him so… but i did sleep all night for the first time in forever.
Truth can truly be stranger than fiction.
P.S. – I am still stubborn… some things will never change.